LadyRavenclaw16

So yeah.... I kinda abandoned deviantart for maybe a year and a half or so... I'm back!

Well, I'm now a second-year and doing a ton of crazy things. I took an art class back in September, so I feel like I've improved artisically, at least! Hopefully I can put up something soon. My camera battery has died and I'm too lazy to charge it...

Okay, for now, so long!

So, I'm at UC Davis as a freshman!!!!

Nice right?

And I just uploaded my first drawing--look left.

Two pics of a guinea pig and a pregnant woman... I think I need to draw more.

Hello! I just wanted to drop a line to all who thanked me for putting them on my favs. You're welcome!

And, I also wanted to say that after a long time of trying to draw a picture worth posting, I have switched to photography. As a result, I now have two pictures of my guinea pig on display for all to see.

Her name is Jackie after one of my favorite characters (from a book!).

And... yeah. So, bye now!

Every day, it's the same thing: get up, go to school, do homework, relax, eat dinner, go to bed. Occasionally I get a reprieve in the form of a friendly phone call or a fun activity, but mostly the monotony exists.

Strangely enough, I use my relaxation time to delve into my more reflective side. To those who know me, I know this might come as a shocker: I actually do have semi-intelligent thoughts.

It's strange. I look back on my younger self and realize how much I have changed.

As a child, until about my freshman-sophomore year of high school, I was pretty different. Thanks to my parents' "support" I loved to show off my "talents" and abilities in just about everything I did. I was a goody-goody and loved to tattle on anyone who did me wrong. I was a teacher's pet.

And then, I fell into fanfiction. I know, what a wierd way to transition your life.

But for some reason, fanfiction, and all that I've gotten into as an extension of it, has revealed me, opened me up to my real self.

I had never really understood why it was so much fun to give a character amazing and fantastic powers, to have them do absolutely anything in the world. I had gotten into the Super!Harry faction of fanfiction, for those of you who understand the terminology in the Harry Potter fandom world. And I liked it. It was fun to give Harry every possible way to defeat someone.

But as time wore on, I realized that there was no need to give a character extraordinary powers. Characters are like extensions of living human beings. They carry our wants, passions, and needs, expressing those things in ways we don't feel we can do in public.

I soon dropped the Super!Harry faction and moved onto more realistic or logical factions, or at least as realistic and logical as Harry Potter fanfiction gets.  

These discoveries I made about fanfiction tied into my real life. I started analyzing myself and my actions more. I stopped acting like a know-it-all and a teacher's pet. Instead of being what my parents wanted me to be, I became what I wanted to be. And it was exhilarating.

I had never felt that before. And I had never had true, in every sense of the word, friends before. Sure, I knew people who were nice. I knew people who were funny. But I never had a friend that I could really call a good friend until my freshman year of high school.

Fanfiction opened my heart and my mind to other people. It gave me the freedom to have fun and enjoy the company of other beings without feeling trapped. I was suddenly able to forget about the importance of school work and my grades, and able to focus on enjoying myself. The pleasure I experienced was intoxicating.

I suppose this is simply blathering on to most people. It seems like it to me. But it is also a discovery that I never really was myself before four years ago. I just realized that I never allowed myself to understand the strange jokes of my peers nor laugh aloud with them at a particularly random comment.

Fanfiction was simply a milestone in my life. I realize now why my parents detested it so much- it took me away from everything they had taught me. They had trained me to be respectful, polite, and the perfect Asian child who would go to Harvard, become a doctor, marry, and raise the prestige of the family. My alternative form of fun changed that perspective into something that I actually believe in and want to follow.

I actually have friends now. Friends, I care about deeply and would do anything for. I have stories and worlds in my head, mixing ideas and characters for wonderful dreams as I sleep. I don't feel stressed or uneasy most of the time, as a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.

Life is so much more fun to live now, and I honestly don't know how I lived without it before September 2003. I treasure my friends and my life.

I hope that someday, all teenagers will be able to find the happiness and joy in life that I have.

Well, it is summer, so that is a plus to my life.

Sadly, my Internet Explorer dislikes deviantart, so I have moved to my dad's PC in order to access the site. So don't feel sad that I haven't responded to messages here. IT'S NOT MY FAULT!!!!

On the upside, I've writen more fanfic lately than I have in the past year. None on my main fic on Fanfiction.Net, which is sure to piss off my readers. Heheh.

One of my friends (KiranoOkamiHime) moved back to Denmark, and as such, my art life has declined. *sigh* Of course, that's not her fault. She inspires me to draw, so I guess my inspiration has vanished to Denmark...

I have officially found a new fangirl obsession: Charmed, the television series. More specifically: Drew Fuller. Medium height, longish brown hair, green eyes, high cheekbones, and very handsome.

My number of actually decent drawings, has risen from one to two! When my scanner from hell starts working again (or I hijack a friends...) I'll put them up.

Anyways, hasta luego (later)!